A short Poem........Or something like that

An excerpt from my journal on the 23Dec.95

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house,not a creature was stirring except for the mouse.
The stockings were hung from the chimney with care,but not for the mouse's because there wouldn't be anything there.
With Ma in her kerchief and I in my cap,I was feeling glad that I had someone on my lap.
The kids were asleep all snug in their bed,knowing they'd get just what they wanted from Santa,because that's what he said.
So out came the mouse with a small pitter patter."Just another day to me,just a little sadder."
He scampered through the house,what a lovable mouse,it's just a shame he felt like such a louse.
I wished and I wished and I thought "could it be?"Had Santa finally come through,for little old me?
So on went the night."It's the meaning for Christmas".That's what the little mouse sought."It's so easy for some,but I must give it more thought."
It's giving not taking.What a wondrous sight,so why little mouse must you put up a fight?
You can look a gift horse straight in the eye,but still as always you'll just wonder why?
And so it is Christmas,that time of the year,when the mouse asks himself."Just why are you here?"
But somebody told him,it might have been St.Nick."There's more to Christmas then just using your Prick"It's joying,and giving,and Learning to share,but all must be done with a great deal of care.
But I do all those things,Can't you see?So I really have to ask,What's in it for me?
I guess what I think,I know what's the matter.Why can't snails have speed like the Mad Hatter?
And I guess that's why,this year,when Santa comes down the chimney with the greatest of ease.The mouse will get something."A small slice of cheese"

And so with that,Santa flew out of sight,saying


MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT

First thing we do is Kill all the lawyers

Well over the last 2 days I've gotten about 50 cards and letters from Lawyers about my situation.........Slime Balls all of them..........Only 2 of them sent anything that wasn't just a form letter for their service.........Well I talked to one of them and I may end up hiring him just because it would make some of my ordeal a little simpler.


So this afternoon at work I'm standing outside having my afternoon smoke brake.....I look down and there is a 5$ folded just laying there in the street.....Don't think anything of it and I stuff it in my pocket....Thinking....Well......Not like I don't need an extra 5 bucks.........I finish my smoke and I'm headed back in and I figure I'll add that five with the one I have in my pocket......Go and unfold that 5 and sure as shit there is a zero behind that 5...........Guess someone is Smiling down on me to let me find a 50$ bill..........Didn't keep it very long though because I still own the guy that sold me his bike another 50 but still.....It's 50$ I didn't have at noon today

I think Neal Young said it Best

WHY DO I KEEP FUCKIN' UP

So......Wednesday...........I planned on meeting Alice out at MGM for the spectacle of Lights and then a little shopping at DTD..........Well I get to the park around 1sh and did a lot of People watching,went on a few rides.Anyways......she gets there at about 7 or so and we walk down and check out the lights.........Very nice and everything......Although we both comment that some of the lights were out,not just one or 2 lights but whole strings and sections of the figures.......Anyways......We leave there and head to DTD........That's were is went down hill fast and I watched one of the more deadly skeletons I have in my graveyard closet come to life.......To flash back.....back in Feb of 2002 when I changed my Drivers license from MN to FL I wrote a check out for it........Well the check bounced and Zippy the Pinhead never did anything about it.......Jump to Dec of 2003 when I go to get my tags again........I'm told at that time about the bad check and what I have to do to fix that and to get tags for 2004...........Once again.....Zippy the Pinhead did nothing......See a pattern here??............Jump to July of 05......Zippy it pulled over for no tags so he's tkted for that and told that he must get those or his license will be revoked.............Guess what Pinhead did..........Yep.........Not a God damb thing.................So......At about 9:30....As I was pulling into DTD there was a car behind me..........That's when I found that there is atleast one thing worse then having to ride "Little Planet"

13 Hours later I'm Bonded to Alice for my Sole.......And the simple fact that it was her day off,she had the means,and was willing to Bail me out...........At this point I have to take every day at every second because I still really don't know what I'm going to do.............Short of doing something that would be,as I like to call it "The Quiters way out".......I have to remember that there are people like my Parents,Alice,and most of all that Wonderful Higher Power that will help me as best they can while I work this one out.

Tiss the Season.............I guess

For a person that's always stuck on the Mood Swing in the Amusment Park of Life this season is always the worst for me.I can be happy one minute the next I have an F You attitude to life.I try not to let it get to me but it always does............I don't know what it is......I had someone tell me it's all in my head...Well no shit....Like I didn't already know that...They said it could all be made better by taking a little pill......Well that didn't work.....Too many years of touring with the Grateful Dead and I found that little pill was more enjoyable if I washed it down with a beer.....Just a cheap buzz and made me longing for a blotter or four,better yet a puddle on my palm to lick off.Although the left over Ready Whip from Thanksgiving was fun......Just say N2O :D


TBC

What no Shuffle today I guess

Well is looks like a few more seats were taken on the Love Boat Bandwagon.I'll wait to book my seat just yet since I'll have to wait till the new year to see if it sets sail.........But I do know I'll be at the ESPN Club that afternoon watching the game.

All I want for Christmas is..................

Well I've got my two front teeth so that's covered..........Guess first things first would be a couple loses for a Bad News Team and the Vikes to keep winning so the Show Down on the New Year will be for all the marbles :D.............And the Devils Spawn to realize that New Orleans would be a fine place to ride off into the sunset in next year.......

As for what I really want,well it's the same thing as every year......Enough coal in the stocking to last me through the winter.Really though,I got the TV for the Living Room from Mom and Dad,and I'm sure I'll get a DVD or 2 from the brothers and friends...............And I'm guessing something Flamingo too from someone or another.............But really all I want is to be happy at what I feel is the lowest point of life every year........And it has nothing to do with the Family being up north and me down here.........I was the same way when I was up there.......I know it's because the clock ticks off another year on the 28th and I just always feel that other then making it one more year that I haven't done anything................Sure I took a great vacation,played more golf in one year then I had done in a lifetime it seems and would have to think if there was a week that went by that I didn't find myself someplace at WDW.......But still it all comes down to the same thing.............



Anyways............atleast my SS gift was sent a couple weeks ago........Christmas cards either have gone out or will be by the end of the week and other then gifts for Mom,Dad,and Alice I'm done with all my shopping

So Close but yet so Far

Lets see..............I guess if I had to pick a first crush it would be Sheri Hanson......5th and 6th grade.....We were in the same class together but she was a Rollerskater and I wasn't so it just never seemed that we could find something to do together.......And the fact that it as 6th grade....Just a little too young for both of us........Next would be Lisa Hughes.......7th grade and just about the time that any boy finds that girls are not yucky and girls find that neither are boys.........I know she is where I found my Love for brunettes. IMO she had the most beautiful hair I had ever seen,we were both in the choir and when she sang it was as if the heavens had opened and it was an Angel singing...........Since we were both in the choir we had mutual friends and would see each other from time to time...........That's also where I leaned the Life of the "Mouse" too scared to ask a simple question since I would figure I already knew the answer before I asked it............Well come the spring of 10th grade and I finally did ask that question............"Would you like to go out some time??"...............I'm not sure how I didn't brake my jaw because I know it hit the floor when she said yes............We went to the Spring Play at school since once again we knew quite a few people in the play and had a great time............Alas I knew it could never last because she moved shortly after school let out that summer......I'll never forget the day I got my drivers license and got to take the car out alone.........I drove past her house and saw that she was gone........I still bawl like a little baby when I hear the song that was on the radio that day when I drove past her house.........We never did keep in touch and I still think about her from time to time.........As for the rest of High School...........Never had another "Date".I tried from time to time to ask girls out but they would never go out with me.........Never went to Prom(no biggie there really) I would go out with friend in groups but I could never seem to find anyone that would do a movie or just to hang out at the McDonald's or BK.........

Once High School was over you would think things would change but they didn't really..........I knew lots of Women as Friends but no one that was more then just a friend............There where a few..........Mary Ellen Alton.....I knew her from collage and we went out a few times.....This was 89 and it was when I was 20 Years old...........The only real reason we went out was because I had a car and she could match me Drink for Drink at shots of JD.........Soon after that I took a 28 day "Vacation" to learn 12 steps that I walked for 2 years before I fell down them..............There was one other young Lady in there too Paula.......Sorry but I can't remember her last name but she was funny because I was working at the time in a White Castle and one night after work we were just sitting at the brake table talking and she leans over and plants one on me........She said I turned the Darkest Red she had ever seen..........We did go out a couple times but she was on the rebound of a Divorce and it just never went beyond a couple movies.

It was about this time that I soon leaned that since I couldn't seem to find a Girl Friend maybe I could adopt big sisters.........Ladies that I could talk to,to let them know how I was feeling but that's all..........Moira was the first and she was great.........We could talk for ever it seemed and she was always there if I need a shoulder to cry on..........She also had a friend......Sue Peterson..........By then I was 28 and still hadn't lost something that most people lose by the end of the first quarter of College...........Well one night Sue and I went to a movie and when I drove her back to her place she asked me in for a night cap...........The next morning I left her house feeling like a new Man......We stayed together for a short time after that but as she put it........I was like a Puppy that was always at her feet....And I was too.....I tried everything to be the Perfect gentleman because I didn't want to Fuck it up but as she put it I wanted to move at the Speed of Light and she wanted to move at the pace of a dead snail..............So we went our separate ways and that's that..............The long journey of life as a mouse led us to Florida in early 2002 and while working at WDW I met a young lady named Tricha.............SSDD........I guess you could say.....Dinner and a Movie from time to time..........Tonsil checking when we were together but that's about it

So there it is....Sad but true...............I know it shouldn't bother me that much but it does........But then again I think to myself......What have I got to offer for a relationship??A dead end job that's not going anywhere and if all goes well I hope to be someplace else by the end of the year,I'm over weight,thinning hair,the only athletics I know is Fantasy Sports,the 12 and 16 Oz. Arm curl,and if rubbing calls was a sport I would win the gold medal I guess.Granted I do have a nice home that I live in............A Condo that the parents own that other then about 2 months out of the year I'm the only one there............And a chick magnet station wagon for a car..........

OK.....So I'm thinking I should be serving a nice Brie with this Whine don't you think??

Building walls and Digging ditched

I've always found that once something isn't fun anymore I stop doing it..........At least that's what I tell myself.........Except I seem to have forgot the whole concept of that because some things I found fun I did stop doing and some that I know are not I still do..........Guess that's the way of the Life I lead...........Living as a Mouse in a hole...........He squires out from time to time to get a chunk of cheese or a crumb but most of the time he hides in his hole watching the world go by too afraid to come out for fear that there would be a trap he might find to end it all

I've done it before.............How does it go again??.........Closed the door,locked it,nailed boards in front of it,bricked up the wall in front of the boards,sheetrocked the wall,painted it and hung a picture on the wall that is there where the door once was...........Then throw away the key to the lock just to make sure the door never opens again............And sad to say it's seemed to have worked on a few things in life....Not always for the better........


to be continued

So where was I??........O yes......The Closet...........Everyone has a closet of anxieties,some bigger then others......Myself..............Mine seems to have a closet full of skeletons (No it's not a Greatest Hits Album either) ,more then some Graveyards it seems at times...........I've been lucky that none of them have ever come back to life to bite me on the ass but I'm afraid that one day at least one of them will and I'm not sure how I'll react to it.

I guess that's why I am the way I am.........I've never wanted anyone to really get to know me because I'm afraid they would think the same thing I do...........What a Fool,how does he do it day in and day out...That's also why I don't think I've ever had a "Significant Other" AKA...Someone to like me for more then just a Friend............If I can barely stand myself at times why would they??

Gee................Why is it I'm thinking just another "Pity me Post" and as the Swing goes I tell myself F you it's my blog I can say what I want

To be continued

My life and Cars

Mom......Can I borrow the Car??...........First said in the summer of 1983.........It was a Red Dodge Omni............AKA....pregnet Rollerskate with big wheels.....And about as safe..........I drove that because Dad had a Buick La Saber and that was the "Nice" car we owned and they took that because the parents car pooled to work.............The Omni was nice and fine for a kid in High school great and got great Gas mileage.......Even took a weekend trip to Alpine Valley for the yearly soljern to see the Dead one time and a trip to the New Years shows in San Fran not sure if I would ever go through the Rockies in a car like that again but it was fun...............But alas after a few years it died....Also in that time was my adventure with what every kid seems to do at some point............The Accident........Long story short I was the driver for the car pool late one night after a school play that a few of us were in........Well like any kid I was speeding down a city street......"dinking" around with the car swerving back and forth....Well I lost control.....And it fishtailed..........Went into a yard and between 2 trees......Split the upright there........Hit the bushes in front of the house and ended in the driveway........Only thing is that parked in the driveway was a big...Motorhome...............One of those Winnabagos that looked like a breadbox on wheels...........When I hit it I T boned it so I hit it right in the side with enough force to rock it on it's wheels.........If it would have tipped I know for sure I wouldn't be here today typing this....Nor would anyone else that was in the car..............Anyways..........Totaled Dads car........That's right.....Not the Omni...Too small.....Dad let me use the Big Car because it held more people
From there is was onto the 71 maverick I got as a Graduation Present in 86........Thing was a rusted out boom but it got me from Point A to Point B for the most part..........Even had a hole in the floorboard that while I was at work a mouse would crawl in and sleep in the car.........Well that was just put out to pasture after a couple years.......That's when I got the cavalier that I had for about 10 years.........Great little car.....Was fun to drive,had a tape deck too I could "Rock the Kasbah".Dead Boots for the most part and other Bootleg tapes from concerts I had been to......But even with that one I wasn't the luckiest............One Christmas night while my brother and I was on the way to a friends house to watch a football game some moron in his car tuned into traffic and hit my car......Took a headlight and smashed the fender but atleast this time it wasn't my fault so dad didn't mind that much..........Got it fixed and sad to say.......One month from the day it was fixed I was number 5 in an 8 car pile up on a snowy winter morning.....Well that car after about 10 years more or less just died.........It had seen enough and was ready to be put to pasture anyways.....From there is was a station wagon that was moms old car..........Nothing fancy but I liked it because it was roomy and had a great radio and tape deck.....Again nothing better then cruisin' with the Dead Blasting.....That car already old when I got it and lasted a couple years..........Then came the day back in 98 when I was at work and mom and dad came to see me for lunch.........Well after lunch they said I had to come outside..........That's when they showed me the Tracer Wagon I have now...........It was the first "New Car" I had ever had and I loved it.........Well 7 years latter is still running..........It like myself laughs when it sees cars that have snowtires,window scrapers or rust from salt and sand.

Guess I can't forget the Co-pilot who has been there from just about day one of me getting my license...........Cassady the Dashboard Dog...........Mom hated him when he was in the Omni and it was still her car....But I drove it more so I guess she didn't mind that much....But he's been on the dashboard the whole time.Every car.every mile....he's been there....don't know what I would ever do if I lost him.....there are times I think he would be saved before I would save the car but I hope it never comes to that

Things I would do before turning to the Dark Side

1.Take up Line Danceing,buy a truck,and get a Nascar schedual
2.Denouce all loyalty to the NFL and have Touchdown Jesus Tatooed on my forehead and ND burned into my sideburns
3.Except that there is no live beond the SEC and become a Cane,Nole,or Gater Fan.........since that's how it is here in Sunny Florida
4.Cheer for any Team that doesn't have the Stench of Lake Michigan waffling through the air at their Stadium :)........that should cover must any team that I would never like I would think
5.Feel like a Cubs fan and say "There's Always Next Year"

I know it's just a game played by Way Over paid Jock but it's still a tradition...wether they win or lose..............

What I did yesterday....And kicking the Devils Spawn's Ass

Well yesterday was fun.A large group from the Boards met at the Poly for drinks.....And to watch Jonas and I do the Hula.It was nice to get some great pictures and to cover DP in Silly String.It was also a great meal we had at Ohana's later that evening.......I love that place......The Shimp and Chicken wings for Apps,then the beef,and chicken they bring for the main course is wonderful because it's cooked right there on a wood grill

then today in Fantasy Football I was able to come from behind and crush Kerri's team to stay in second place

What I plan to do tomorrow

Well it all comes down to tomorrow........Jonas and I doing the Hula on the Beach at the Poly....In Grass Skirts..........It's interesting because I have so many friends........And all of them are on the internet.......As for here in Orlando other then one other person I don't really have any friends I see on a regular basis.............But on the net I have quite a few that I talk to every day.Infact I talk to them more then I talk to my own parents.

Why I would never own a Timeshare

So if you ever even think of buying a Timeshare you must first ask yourself..........Self........Do you have more money then the Federal Reserve and want to throw it away or burn it?.Am I as Dumb as a Brick?Do I believe everything I'm told by a Sales person you answer yes to all of these then you can buy a Timeshare ....If not then if you answer no to the first one and don't have enough money for the pot you piss in and a rock for the soup you make each night to eat then you also qualify

Having now worked for a Timeshare I just have to wonder why people buy them in the first place............I understand that some people have the common sense to understand the whole program and how it works and they think it's great too often I have to deal with people that just don't get it........Surprise Surprise there are hidden costs that they Salesperson "didn't" mention...........Like annual fees,exchange fees,the fact you can't always get to the place you want to stay at the time you want.

One of the main things people don't understand is that to use something you must first pay for it............Not the mortgage,not the membership fees with the exchange company,but the annual Maintenance Fees and Taxes to the Resort.

And wouldn't you think they would read all the papers they had to sign when they bought the thing in the first place.....Nope.....Most of them don't....But it's all there in black and white and they ever had to sign the page it's on.

How Bout those Bad News Bears.............Wait.......They lost..............How Bout those Green Bay Puckers........Wait......They lost too...............Well..........Looks to me as though the only team to win in the North was the Vikings this week.......Should make for interesting table talk next weekend at Ohana's.............Too bad I'm getting my Ass kicked in Fantasy Football this week and in both leagues it's by Amber........But I did make it another week in the survivor Pool so I can't complain

OK..........So how does this work..........I just type and anyone that wants to read it does.....Seems boring but I guess it could be interesting does have spell check so it can't be that bad.

Guess since it's slow at work and I have nothing else better to do I'll just play around with this for a while.

My computer at home died the other day...........Since it was from the Stone Age........Running on Windows 98 and no memory and no hope of adding any it was only time before it did die anyways...........I'll worry about that though after my trip to DL at the end of Oct.

looking forward to a fun week ahead..........I get to meet a few Freak Friends from Disneysites and do a Hula on the Beach at the Poly next weekend