What's this Thing called a weekend??

I've been told that most people have this thing called a weekend that happens on Saturdays and Sundays........I've always had Days off but they were during the week........now I have my days off and they are on the weekends..........seems like a strange concept to me.....I just figured it was some strange thing everyone talked about but some of us never get to do................like a few other things in life but enough about that :D


The first week of the job went well.....I really thing I'm going to enjoy it and for now I'm happy.....although I guess I'm glad the TV season is almost over because I don't know what I would do since I'll be working 3:30- midnight I'll be missing all the shows during the week........I may look into getting TEVO but I'll wait on that till this fall I think and atleast untill I know what my budget is going to be like.

I plan to make a trip to Casting either this week or next just to see what the "warden" has to say.........I like the job but really....I didn't move down here to just go to the parks...I want to help make the magic too......


I do have some other things going on in my life....but for now I'll just leave that where it is and not even try to open that door since it would IMO....be more of a can of worms then anything else............

otherwise...........All is well in the Palace and I'll let you know how the trip to casting goes after I make it......

Quick post

Well it's been a short time so I thought I would bring everyone up to date..........like you don't all know already anyways.

I start a new job tomorrow and I'm really excited about it.......It's for Rosen Resorts in Central Res. and I'm sure I'm going to enjoy it a ton more then the last job just because I won't have to deal with Stupid Timeshare Owners.

Had a great time with Larilyn when she was out here.....although I wish we could have gone on that God Forsaken Ride together..............maybe next time............


If all goes as planned I'll be the new Handyman,Lawnboy,anything that requires manual Labor person for a friends new house.........must be that Will Work for Food sign she sees me with :lol:

that's about it I guess......other then that all is well at the Flamingo Palace

There.........ya happy now........

So I guess if I just say Same Shit,Different Day,you'll want more then that.


Nothing new really to write about.The Snowbirds are back safe and sound in the Great North Woods of Minnesota.I've redone my resume and I hope to start looking for a new Dead End Job this week.........I also plan to make Disney one of the places I'll go to,to see if the Death penalty can be lifted yet.I'm looking forward to my vacation soon so that should be fun............


Just to add a couple cents :D..........Since I won't have much vacation time left and if I have a new Job I won't have any I don't see myself taking a trip the second week of September........but I do plan to get a cheesy Lawn Orniment with 8 different costumes for a gift or something along those lines :D..................................and I'm placing my bet now that by the end of the year I'll be starting the Win A Brand New Car thread again but that's just my .02


hope that's enough for ya to keep you happy for now

I know,I know

I know I sell myself short but I've done it all my life.......I look at the whole package and I think it's the kind of thing that will get returned first thing on the 26th of Dec.........

As for being able to talk,well I can......I just turn into a pile of Stupid after about 3 minutes or so,well maybe not that short but close.............


TBC

Still time to place those bets

Well yesterday was interesting.Of the 8 Ladies I could have met 3 were No-Shows.Of the 5 that were there 2 were nice but I could tell that neither of them were interested in me and I really wasn't in them either.So when I get the chance to fill in my sheet online I'll say yes to the other 3 and see where it leads to and see if they were interested enough in me to lead to another meeting.I'll bet the favorite though and guess that Casey went 0 for 3..............I know I think I sell myself short all the time,but to me it's true...........I don't have much to offer and after the fact I always think of things I could have said and talked about but didn't.....there was one lady who said she likes to go out but a nice night to her was a nice diner at home and a movie......Zippy didn't seem to register that one as a perfect set up for "I love to cook but I hate to do it just for myself"

I guess it just leads me to what someone told me once............I spend too much time expecting Ms Right to just walk up to me,smack me on the side of the head and say "Here I am...what next?"


TBC.................

Counting a Chicken laying an egg

Well.......As Wednesday gets closer I get more nervous.Tell me everything about yourself in 6 minutes.........Yah..Sure.....That's easy.I guess I shouldn't complain since I'm such a stellar conversationalist anyways that 6 minutes should be a snap for me..........6 1/2 would be a challenge but I think I can handle 6.And really if I can find some nice lady that would be interested in Diner and a Movie(My Treat.....Atleast on the first date)I won't complain.


TBC

Like a White Top Hat tumbling through Space

Ever get a song stuck in your head and no mater what you do or thing or say you just can't seem to get it out.............Well I've got one and it's worse then "Little Planet".........And for me you know it's got to be bad......I've tried everything......I've listened to the song from start to finish,I've even listened to an extended cut live version.......What ever I do it still comes back.....I think of other songs and they all seem to medley back into it.It really wouldn't be so bad but it's a song that has a rather unspecial memory for me behind it and the one time that I did hear it played on the radio........................O well.......Life goes on and I guess I should be thankful that it's not some god forsaken melody from a boat ride in Fantasyland

Thank You

Thank You for the kind words......As they say "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff"......Well I'm a pro at making a grain of sand a boulder the size of Everest.

Well the Mighty Casey steps up to bat again on the 8th of March.I signed up for another Speed dating event and I guess since it will be my 3rd time in 4 years I figure I would give it one more shot.......The first time I met 10 ladies that night and out of the 9 I said I would like to meet again none of them felt the same way about me...............The second time there were 12 and I said yes to 8.......Same thing........So I'm batting 0-17.I would like to think that I would get a hit this time.........If for nothing else at least Dinner and a Movie my treat.It's not like I'm looking for an LTR......Although it would be nice if it grew into that and I'm not a One Night Stand kind of person either....Although I wouldn't pass that up either I mean come on I am a guy.

I guess it's just because as I see it the Friends that I know socially I can count on one finger really,and it's not that I don't know other people it's just that I'm not in their "Click" I guess that they would never think to include me if it was a group thing or something like that.........And as for the people I work with,since I seem to be the one that speaks a fouren language it just

doens't work when they talk about going out.......That and I just hate the Bar Sceen anyways.

Well enough for now...........carry on

Just another Tuesday to me

First off.....Fuck you........I'm just as sick of listening to me whine as you are but at least you don't have to live with it.

I guess with Tuesday about to come and go again I believe that for another years it's over......The holidays have come and gone,the Birthday is over,the feel of a New Year has come and past and once again that day in February that so many seem to enjoy for so many reasons is just another day to me.

With those out of the way,I can get on with the regular Whining....Not just the holiday and Winter Whining.

Some interesting news though.........I'm happy for them.......Very Jealous as I am with anyone that has been able to find a Significant other,but over all I'm happy for them and I hope they fine happiness together for a long time too....................Although if I was a bettin' man I would guess who will wear the pants in the family and make all the desitions..........And I know for a fact there won't ever be a guess as to who has to move where.......But that's just my opinions that isn't worth the time it takes to spell check it I guess.

One other sad note.......At least for now.........I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to close another door......I'm sure I'll look in the window from time to time but I've convinced myself that I just can't open it again because of what I've done and said over the last few months and I just don't feel comfortable there anymore................(insert "God he really is a Freak and an Idiot isn't he." here).I've lived the life of a mouse for so long that it's just easyer to run away and hide then to try to change what I am..................

TBC

That's what Moms do

Don't get me wrong,I love her dearly..................But there are times I'm thankful I'm a 4 hour plane trip and a 3 hour drive away from her.Yesterday Dear Mother took it upon herself to clean my exile...........It's the small porch at the Condo that has a small table,4 chairs(one is broken but works great for a footrest),a plant that I haven't killed yet,2 ashtrays,and a little table ashtray that was an erloom from my grandmother that when they were dividing up the possetions I said I don't want anything else but that ashtray.There was also the small BBQ grill I use that was rusted but still worked for me.Well anyways she washed off the table and if you know Florida it was clean for about 15 minutes it seems but then is dusty again in no time..........Wanted me to run the ashtrays through the dishwasher.......Now this is the same person that if I even thought of lighting a cigarette in the condo....She could smell it from MN......So I said I would not do that because I knew for the next 2 months I would have to listen to her complain that she could taste ash on every dish that came out of the dishwasher ........I also complained that they are only ashtrays and they sit outside anyways....Why should they have to look like new........They're ashtrays............She has also got me a few times now with calling me into the kichen to do something,I'll finish that task,go back to sit down and as soon as I sit she will call me again to do something else.....................and don't get me started with the talking from another room and expecting to be able to hear her...........................

The Joys of Jury Duty.....Or something like that

So now that my "Adventure" from last month is done what do I get from Osceola County but a summons for Jury Duty..........So far it hasn't been that bad.........But with my luck I'll be picked for some trial that will go on for ever

Well the day started out that I had to be there by 8AM.........So I get there at about 7:45 and like everything else it seems in Central Florida I had to hurry up and wait in line.They started checking people in at about 8 and they send you into a "Holding Pen" room with about 100 chairs.They had coffee and tea for you to drink and there were vending machines of you wanted pop.....Or soda.....They also have computers there for you to surf or play games.........Although I did learn that they have a firewall that's like Fort Knox it seems........But I brought a book to read so I didn't surf that much and you can' only play so much solitaire before it gets boring.......Anyways the morning dragged and the case that they had was posponed so at 11:15 they sent us on break and said be back at 1:15

Back from lunch and more sitting and reading and time killing..........One other thing they had was a small courtyard with tall walls....A nice little exile for those that needed it :D.........Anyways at about 2 they called 22 people out and I was one of them..They take us up to meet the Judge and lawyers.....They ask a few questions and after that they send us out into the hall.......After a 10 minute wait they call out 7 numbers........Mine was one of them so there I was on a Jury .

The case was the State of Florida VS. Some "Not so fine a man who only spoke Spanish"......For lack of a better name

Anyways,The case was that the defendant was caught shoplifting at a Wal-Mart.There as a Lose prevention Officer who watched someone buy a DVD player and a printer,value of $550.00.As that person was leaving the store he handed his receit to the defendant.The defendant then took a cart and walked back to electonics and took the same items.The officer followed him the whole time and was on the phone with other officers who were watching the other guy that paid for the stuff.The story went that the guy who paid for the stuff just went outside and waited.......Well he must have known he was being watched because he took off running at one point just leaving the stuff on a bench outside.As the Defendant was exiting the store they busted him.Wal-Mart made a copy of the original reciet and also another one showing the stolen merchandise and the time stamp on the 2 was 17 minutes difference.

The defendants "story" was that he was there with a Girlfriend and she was in the store shopping while he was in the parking lot...Or someplace....We were not sure but anyways he was fixing a car..........When he was dome doing that he said he went into the store to look for her.....Called her on the cell a few times and even stood in line because it was busy and they were going to the beach when they were done shopping........He said that when he found her in the store she just throw the receit at him and walked out..........So that's why he had the stuff and walked out without paying for it.........Bunch of crap if you ask me.And his "story" just didn't jive for all the facts

Anyways.....After about 2 hours of being in the court room they then take us back to the deliberation room and that's were the fun starts.........There were 6 of us on the jury,3 guys and 3 ladies..........Well 4 of us knew he was guilty and 2 thought he was too but didn't feel that the state did a good enough job showing the evidence to say he was guilty.At one point the Bailiff came in with coffee and said that he wished we could hear the whole story but that it's the way of the Justice System and what makes it so great.
after about 2 hours it's 7 now and we've all been there about 11 hours or so.....We're hung and there is no turning the 2 so back into the courtroom we go to tell the Judge that.....He says we have to try one more time to reach a verdict and sends us back into the room again.Another half hour and we're back in the Courtroom with the fine ply of Hung Jury........They thank us and let us go.

As we are leaving the room the bailiff tells us that now that we are done he can tell us the Whole story..........Well the "Big Picture" that we were not told was that this is not the first time this guy has done this.He was also in another trial for 18 counts of Stolen purses,handbags,and wallets that they will be able to find him guilty on from one day at the same Wal-Mart.


So anyways....Over all it was an interesting day.I'm thankful that it wasn't a long trial and that it wasn't a murder case or something like that.......I don't know if I could take anything like that.About the only thing I did learn is that if I ever have to do it again I'll do it on a day I'm suppost to work instead of my day off.........And because of that I didn't get paid or anything.

The Kindness of Stangers,and wishing for Death

So.............The New Year is here and such a fine start it's had.......I started mine last Saturday the 31st.........Since I was going to go to my friend Alice's after work that night she didn't want to have to put my bike in her car so I said I would walk.......Well I started the 50 minuet walk and when I got about 3 minutes into it someone pulled over asking for directions.......I gave them directions and they offered to give me a ride to work...........Saved the 1.50 Bus fare so why not........So I get to work......Normal day for the must part but as they day went on I started to not feel the best.....No biggie......Maybe it's a cold or something..........I make it through the day and head to Alice's..........It's so nice to have a Friend that will cook for me......Surf and Turf dinner of Stake and Lobster.....Who could pass that up for New Years Eve.......After eating we decided that we would head to Epcot to see the Fireworks at Midnight.....I still wasn't feeling all that hot so I lay down on the couch.....2 hours later she wakes me up to say it's time to go.I ask to be taken home because I still don't feel all that well and didn't want to be up till Midnight.......Just wanted to wish my pillow Happy New Years at that point.So I get home and have a glass of OJ........That's when it hit me like a brick.......Cold Sweat,aches,fever........Nothing worse then the Flu for New Years...........Well Sunday I had to go to work......Double Pay and all that I couldn't pass it up....I still felt like crap but I was determined to make it.........Well coughing all day and wishing I could just lay down and Die I made it for the 8 hour shift........But the Bike Ride home almost killed me..........I get home and I feel like I could just die and that's about how I felt for the next 24 hours or so.......Monday I did call into work Dead.......Tuesday I had plans with Alice to finally get me car.....After a few hoops I had to jump through and another 240.00 from the person that is still Bonded to my Sole for Bailing me out in the first place I was able to drive home that afternoon...........So now it's the 5th.....I drove to work today and it's just a nasty Head cold but other then that..........A fine Start to a New Year

A short Poem........Or something like that

An excerpt from my journal on the 23Dec.95

Twas the night before Christmas and all through the house,not a creature was stirring except for the mouse.
The stockings were hung from the chimney with care,but not for the mouse's because there wouldn't be anything there.
With Ma in her kerchief and I in my cap,I was feeling glad that I had someone on my lap.
The kids were asleep all snug in their bed,knowing they'd get just what they wanted from Santa,because that's what he said.
So out came the mouse with a small pitter patter."Just another day to me,just a little sadder."
He scampered through the house,what a lovable mouse,it's just a shame he felt like such a louse.
I wished and I wished and I thought "could it be?"Had Santa finally come through,for little old me?
So on went the night."It's the meaning for Christmas".That's what the little mouse sought."It's so easy for some,but I must give it more thought."
It's giving not taking.What a wondrous sight,so why little mouse must you put up a fight?
You can look a gift horse straight in the eye,but still as always you'll just wonder why?
And so it is Christmas,that time of the year,when the mouse asks himself."Just why are you here?"
But somebody told him,it might have been St.Nick."There's more to Christmas then just using your Prick"It's joying,and giving,and Learning to share,but all must be done with a great deal of care.
But I do all those things,Can't you see?So I really have to ask,What's in it for me?
I guess what I think,I know what's the matter.Why can't snails have speed like the Mad Hatter?
And I guess that's why,this year,when Santa comes down the chimney with the greatest of ease.The mouse will get something."A small slice of cheese"

And so with that,Santa flew out of sight,saying


MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT

First thing we do is Kill all the lawyers

Well over the last 2 days I've gotten about 50 cards and letters from Lawyers about my situation.........Slime Balls all of them..........Only 2 of them sent anything that wasn't just a form letter for their service.........Well I talked to one of them and I may end up hiring him just because it would make some of my ordeal a little simpler.


So this afternoon at work I'm standing outside having my afternoon smoke brake.....I look down and there is a 5$ folded just laying there in the street.....Don't think anything of it and I stuff it in my pocket....Thinking....Well......Not like I don't need an extra 5 bucks.........I finish my smoke and I'm headed back in and I figure I'll add that five with the one I have in my pocket......Go and unfold that 5 and sure as shit there is a zero behind that 5...........Guess someone is Smiling down on me to let me find a 50$ bill..........Didn't keep it very long though because I still own the guy that sold me his bike another 50 but still.....It's 50$ I didn't have at noon today

I think Neal Young said it Best

WHY DO I KEEP FUCKIN' UP

So......Wednesday...........I planned on meeting Alice out at MGM for the spectacle of Lights and then a little shopping at DTD..........Well I get to the park around 1sh and did a lot of People watching,went on a few rides.Anyways......she gets there at about 7 or so and we walk down and check out the lights.........Very nice and everything......Although we both comment that some of the lights were out,not just one or 2 lights but whole strings and sections of the figures.......Anyways......We leave there and head to DTD........That's were is went down hill fast and I watched one of the more deadly skeletons I have in my graveyard closet come to life.......To flash back.....back in Feb of 2002 when I changed my Drivers license from MN to FL I wrote a check out for it........Well the check bounced and Zippy the Pinhead never did anything about it.......Jump to Dec of 2003 when I go to get my tags again........I'm told at that time about the bad check and what I have to do to fix that and to get tags for 2004...........Once again.....Zippy the Pinhead did nothing......See a pattern here??............Jump to July of 05......Zippy it pulled over for no tags so he's tkted for that and told that he must get those or his license will be revoked.............Guess what Pinhead did..........Yep.........Not a God damb thing.................So......At about 9:30....As I was pulling into DTD there was a car behind me..........That's when I found that there is atleast one thing worse then having to ride "Little Planet"

13 Hours later I'm Bonded to Alice for my Sole.......And the simple fact that it was her day off,she had the means,and was willing to Bail me out...........At this point I have to take every day at every second because I still really don't know what I'm going to do.............Short of doing something that would be,as I like to call it "The Quiters way out".......I have to remember that there are people like my Parents,Alice,and most of all that Wonderful Higher Power that will help me as best they can while I work this one out.

Tiss the Season.............I guess

For a person that's always stuck on the Mood Swing in the Amusment Park of Life this season is always the worst for me.I can be happy one minute the next I have an F You attitude to life.I try not to let it get to me but it always does............I don't know what it is......I had someone tell me it's all in my head...Well no shit....Like I didn't already know that...They said it could all be made better by taking a little pill......Well that didn't work.....Too many years of touring with the Grateful Dead and I found that little pill was more enjoyable if I washed it down with a beer.....Just a cheap buzz and made me longing for a blotter or four,better yet a puddle on my palm to lick off.Although the left over Ready Whip from Thanksgiving was fun......Just say N2O :D


TBC

What no Shuffle today I guess

Well is looks like a few more seats were taken on the Love Boat Bandwagon.I'll wait to book my seat just yet since I'll have to wait till the new year to see if it sets sail.........But I do know I'll be at the ESPN Club that afternoon watching the game.

All I want for Christmas is..................

Well I've got my two front teeth so that's covered..........Guess first things first would be a couple loses for a Bad News Team and the Vikes to keep winning so the Show Down on the New Year will be for all the marbles :D.............And the Devils Spawn to realize that New Orleans would be a fine place to ride off into the sunset in next year.......

As for what I really want,well it's the same thing as every year......Enough coal in the stocking to last me through the winter.Really though,I got the TV for the Living Room from Mom and Dad,and I'm sure I'll get a DVD or 2 from the brothers and friends...............And I'm guessing something Flamingo too from someone or another.............But really all I want is to be happy at what I feel is the lowest point of life every year........And it has nothing to do with the Family being up north and me down here.........I was the same way when I was up there.......I know it's because the clock ticks off another year on the 28th and I just always feel that other then making it one more year that I haven't done anything................Sure I took a great vacation,played more golf in one year then I had done in a lifetime it seems and would have to think if there was a week that went by that I didn't find myself someplace at WDW.......But still it all comes down to the same thing.............



Anyways............atleast my SS gift was sent a couple weeks ago........Christmas cards either have gone out or will be by the end of the week and other then gifts for Mom,Dad,and Alice I'm done with all my shopping

So Close but yet so Far

Lets see..............I guess if I had to pick a first crush it would be Sheri Hanson......5th and 6th grade.....We were in the same class together but she was a Rollerskater and I wasn't so it just never seemed that we could find something to do together.......And the fact that it as 6th grade....Just a little too young for both of us........Next would be Lisa Hughes.......7th grade and just about the time that any boy finds that girls are not yucky and girls find that neither are boys.........I know she is where I found my Love for brunettes. IMO she had the most beautiful hair I had ever seen,we were both in the choir and when she sang it was as if the heavens had opened and it was an Angel singing...........Since we were both in the choir we had mutual friends and would see each other from time to time...........That's also where I leaned the Life of the "Mouse" too scared to ask a simple question since I would figure I already knew the answer before I asked it............Well come the spring of 10th grade and I finally did ask that question............"Would you like to go out some time??"...............I'm not sure how I didn't brake my jaw because I know it hit the floor when she said yes............We went to the Spring Play at school since once again we knew quite a few people in the play and had a great time............Alas I knew it could never last because she moved shortly after school let out that summer......I'll never forget the day I got my drivers license and got to take the car out alone.........I drove past her house and saw that she was gone........I still bawl like a little baby when I hear the song that was on the radio that day when I drove past her house.........We never did keep in touch and I still think about her from time to time.........As for the rest of High School...........Never had another "Date".I tried from time to time to ask girls out but they would never go out with me.........Never went to Prom(no biggie there really) I would go out with friend in groups but I could never seem to find anyone that would do a movie or just to hang out at the McDonald's or BK.........

Once High School was over you would think things would change but they didn't really..........I knew lots of Women as Friends but no one that was more then just a friend............There where a few..........Mary Ellen Alton.....I knew her from collage and we went out a few times.....This was 89 and it was when I was 20 Years old...........The only real reason we went out was because I had a car and she could match me Drink for Drink at shots of JD.........Soon after that I took a 28 day "Vacation" to learn 12 steps that I walked for 2 years before I fell down them..............There was one other young Lady in there too Paula.......Sorry but I can't remember her last name but she was funny because I was working at the time in a White Castle and one night after work we were just sitting at the brake table talking and she leans over and plants one on me........She said I turned the Darkest Red she had ever seen..........We did go out a couple times but she was on the rebound of a Divorce and it just never went beyond a couple movies.

It was about this time that I soon leaned that since I couldn't seem to find a Girl Friend maybe I could adopt big sisters.........Ladies that I could talk to,to let them know how I was feeling but that's all..........Moira was the first and she was great.........We could talk for ever it seemed and she was always there if I need a shoulder to cry on..........She also had a friend......Sue Peterson..........By then I was 28 and still hadn't lost something that most people lose by the end of the first quarter of College...........Well one night Sue and I went to a movie and when I drove her back to her place she asked me in for a night cap...........The next morning I left her house feeling like a new Man......We stayed together for a short time after that but as she put it........I was like a Puppy that was always at her feet....And I was too.....I tried everything to be the Perfect gentleman because I didn't want to Fuck it up but as she put it I wanted to move at the Speed of Light and she wanted to move at the pace of a dead snail..............So we went our separate ways and that's that..............The long journey of life as a mouse led us to Florida in early 2002 and while working at WDW I met a young lady named Tricha.............SSDD........I guess you could say.....Dinner and a Movie from time to time..........Tonsil checking when we were together but that's about it

So there it is....Sad but true...............I know it shouldn't bother me that much but it does........But then again I think to myself......What have I got to offer for a relationship??A dead end job that's not going anywhere and if all goes well I hope to be someplace else by the end of the year,I'm over weight,thinning hair,the only athletics I know is Fantasy Sports,the 12 and 16 Oz. Arm curl,and if rubbing calls was a sport I would win the gold medal I guess.Granted I do have a nice home that I live in............A Condo that the parents own that other then about 2 months out of the year I'm the only one there............And a chick magnet station wagon for a car..........

OK.....So I'm thinking I should be serving a nice Brie with this Whine don't you think??

Building walls and Digging ditched

I've always found that once something isn't fun anymore I stop doing it..........At least that's what I tell myself.........Except I seem to have forgot the whole concept of that because some things I found fun I did stop doing and some that I know are not I still do..........Guess that's the way of the Life I lead...........Living as a Mouse in a hole...........He squires out from time to time to get a chunk of cheese or a crumb but most of the time he hides in his hole watching the world go by too afraid to come out for fear that there would be a trap he might find to end it all

I've done it before.............How does it go again??.........Closed the door,locked it,nailed boards in front of it,bricked up the wall in front of the boards,sheetrocked the wall,painted it and hung a picture on the wall that is there where the door once was...........Then throw away the key to the lock just to make sure the door never opens again............And sad to say it's seemed to have worked on a few things in life....Not always for the better........


to be continued

So where was I??........O yes......The Closet...........Everyone has a closet of anxieties,some bigger then others......Myself..............Mine seems to have a closet full of skeletons (No it's not a Greatest Hits Album either) ,more then some Graveyards it seems at times...........I've been lucky that none of them have ever come back to life to bite me on the ass but I'm afraid that one day at least one of them will and I'm not sure how I'll react to it.

I guess that's why I am the way I am.........I've never wanted anyone to really get to know me because I'm afraid they would think the same thing I do...........What a Fool,how does he do it day in and day out...That's also why I don't think I've ever had a "Significant Other" AKA...Someone to like me for more then just a Friend............If I can barely stand myself at times why would they??

Gee................Why is it I'm thinking just another "Pity me Post" and as the Swing goes I tell myself F you it's my blog I can say what I want

To be continued